The Christmas blues seem to be setting in a bit early this year. Typically, they wait, though not patiently, until after I have done the shopping, the cookie baking, the decorating. etc. They wait until all there is left to do is wait for the big day. This year though, its barely a week after Thanksgiving, and I am blue. Blue as the ocean off the Maine coast. That murky, almost brown, blue.
I've been fighting off the tears much more than usual lately. I'm sure it has something to do with worry. I'm worried about my "sister", her successful surgery, long recovery, and that I'm not there to help and love on her. I worry about my Aunt G, who is also battling breast cancer. I'm worried about the kids not getting what they want because their tastes have gotten MUCH more expensive over the year, though they won't even care after they've opened their loot.
But, I wonder, since I get like this every year... If there is much more to it. Thanks to a few years of therapy, I have the tools to narrow it down to what the real culprit is, but I'm having no luck. I have all I need, all I want, all the important things and people are taken care of. Yet, I seem to sit on the verge of tears nearly every day. I just thank God I haven't heard that song "Christmas Shoes" yet, or I'd be a puddle.
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4 comments:
You're not alone. A lot of people get the holiday blues. Take care of yourself - I think it's worse when we're tired or run down.
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I tend not to get weepy, but closed off and irritable.
And irritating to others.
My wife has become an expert on reading me and not letting me become a turd (while still being sensitive to my feelings. not sure how she does it, but there you go)
Just take a breath, cry, turn the sappy Christmas songs OFF and go for a walk.
(and know you are in good company)
Yup. Blue, weepy, tired, run down, closed off, irritable, overly sensitive. That's me at this time of year. And I STILL look forward to it every year. What the hell is wrong with me anyway? BWAHAHAHA!
Hey hon. You know you are not alone...Ive been doing nothing but fighting tears .....and half the time I have to just let them flow. Your kiddos love you and are going to love everything they get! Keep your beautiful head up and be proud of yourself as a wife, a mom, and my bestfriend! I love you!
Oh, and lil tony played the christmas shoe song the other day and told me he thinks of me when he hears hit...the tears I cried were like a waterfall!!!!!
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